If you ask him he will probably still speak like he was never hurt before. You ask him what he thinks and he will just answer with a very few words. If you ask him what happened he will pause in seconds because the truth is he doesn’t really know.
The only thing that he knows is that he used to be a different person. Someone who seemed to be unstoppable and had so much gusto in life. Someone who can trust. Someone who can open up himself, but now he can’t. Not even to that person who only wants the best for him. That’s the thing about men like him.
He is a reserved man, a good leader of his age, he has visions that his colleagues couldn’t see. He just happens to be the person who can do everything if he puts his focus and time on it. He was once so passionate in life. He is a man who fell in love. A man who gives everything he has for the person he likes but is left wondering.
Kindness and generosity overflows from him. And when there’s nothing left that he can give, he makes ways to help. He helps in a way that no one will notice. It’s just hard for him to refuse and reject because he knows how hard and painful it feels. He always sees the goodness in each person even if everyone is against it. If you are a person in need and you ask him, he would not have a second thought to lend you a hand even if it will put him in an awkward situation and jeopardize himself.
Even if you know that he’s afraid to share, he is already showing you how wonderful it is to live the life that you have. He is a man of few words. He is charming and full of wit, but he also knows that it could lead you to falling for him. Sometimes, he doesn’t know how to react to you but he knows how to make you feel secure and special.
Spending time with him will only want you to get to know him more. He sometimes makes you flutter, he gives you confidence, he builds you up, and he tears down those hard walls that you used to have around you to protect yourself away from people. Without knowing it, he already became your support system and a cheerleader. Subconsciously, he builds emotional connections with you. It surprised you that you could talk to him in hours. You talk about life and everything that you have never done with him before or with anyone. He can make you spend late nights talking with him on the phone even if it requires you to stop whatever you do.
He was there when you needed him, he was the one who made you smile and laugh when you needed a break in work and in life. He surprisingly saves you in days when you didn’t know you needed saving. That sounds interesting but at the same time alarming. He makes you feel all these things but because you know he is someone who couldn’t commit himself with you because of the responsibilities that he already has. But if he does, once he decides to choose you ~ he will be the greatest partner and hero you can ever have in life.
He does and enjoys all these things with you. But he has to do it subtly so when duty calls, both of you need to gear up and say goodbye. That’s the reality that you have.
The relationship that he has with you is confusing and the lines are blurry that he do not know how to position himself in your life. You came into a point that both of you are already emotionally invested and it is hard to stop. He wanted to maintain the relationship and go on longer than it should be. But that wasn’t the case because it requires effort in both parts. Both of you know that each of you came into each other’s lives for a reason and he is afraid to justify both feelings because maybe he wants his next relationship to be his last.
You both know that the ending that you might have will not be what you wanted and it might be painful. You know that he is a man that can be so close to you (in your heart) but yet be so far.
Like you, he wanted to keep you for life. He doesn’t want you to get tired of him. It’s not about you. In reality it’s about him and everything about the person he is. You might find someone else and you will try to do things that you used to do with him but it will feel different.
He needs to realize the relationship that he has with you. He is a responsible man and he can give you what you need. Everyone needs him and if he allows it you might walk away leaving him empty, hurt and lost. It isn’t yours or his intention. He wouldn’t like it either.
At night he might miss the attention and time that you give him. He stares at his phone and wonders if you would call even if sometimes it annoys him. He wants to treasure the memories of the feelings you shared with him. You know that he is good and caring because he really is.
You didn’t date him because you know it might lead him in pain. He knows that either you or him will be away and might not be there all the time to comfort each other. He knows that you didn’t have to date him or a title to have his heart broken. He is a person and a hero that once saved you.
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