Since this new website was created a few months ago, I always tried to start writing and posting a new blog entry. In the very first sentence, somehow, I end up losing inspiration. I guess this is what they called “writer’s block” and it is something that I have been battling with for years. Yep, you read it right. It is years babe! Years. I can not put enough emphasis on how difficult it is to deal with it.
During my grade school and high school years I have been writing a lot of things. From short stories to a few song lyrics (that never got a real tune) and to short novels, losing interest in my craft has always been a guilty distraction.
Don’t get me wrong. I love writing and blogging which is why I am really thankful to a few of my friends who were there from the start who listened and supported my crazy idea of starting my own podcast, website and pursuing “blogging”. Creating content, especially blogging, opened doors for me that I don’t even know existed. It is through blogging that I can say I get to express my thoughts, feelings and the real me without holding back just like how I write in my journals.
Lately, I have been thinking a lot and maybe it is one of the contributors of why I am having this writer’s block. I don’t open up that much especially if it is about my goals, worries in life and personal pain. However, if I decide to share it with someone, I am fortunate enough to get an opinion and words of wisdom from some of my trusted friends. Honestly, with my class about to start, managing the podcast show, committing to the side hustle that we’ve been trying to work on, updating the blog, responsibility to my family and personal concerns – juggling them is like aiming for a gold medal in olympics. It is really hard, it requires intense self-discipline and grit.
But it wasn’t long after when I realized I have to set my priorities straight. For the past weeks I have been on goal hiatus. So now, I decided to get back on track and get in touch with some of my supposedly podcast guests who’ve been waiting for the final schedule. This is not as easy as I thought it would. I lost some of my consistent listeners, I no longer receive positive response from my target audience and I barely get a reader now.
With me cancelling 3 meetings last Friday night and another one yesterday (cause I had enough pain from cramps) I finally snapped back to reality. Just weeks or days, but I have to admit, that picking up where I left off is really daunting. But with the support from people whom I did not think of who will support and cheer for me ~ I shouldn’t give up. Like what I’ve said, I love my blog!
I want you to know why I did not have an update on my website, why I did not post enough episodes for the podcast and why I was afk for a long time now. But it’s not just that. If you are on the verge of giving up something that you’ve been wanting and investing for a very long time – let it be your work, your new business, new relationships, your passion projects or your commitment to yourself and family, or even to the country – please know that you are not alone. Someone else and somewhere out there is going through the same thing.
Now, take a deep breath and exhale. Keep in mind that if life gives you a thousand reasons to cry, show the world that you have millions of reasons to smile. We got your back! So don’t quit and keep moving (:
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